Alone

Life is hard cause the harsh reality of this whole game is that we're each all alone. Occasionally you'll meet someone who trust you enough to share their heart with you...but a lot of life will be spent in your own world. That's why so many people exert an enormous amount of energy trying to desperately connect with people. Living out here has taught me that lesson...above all else people will take care of themselves first. In my naivete I believed that at least the people I loved the most would do all they could to have my back. I have embraced that I am my own rock...I do have people in my life who love me and don't like to see me go through hard times but at the end of the day when times do get hard I am going through it, not them. In so many ways that has made me a stronger person and helped me grown into a man. Nobody can take credit for anything I accomplished nor can they stop me from getting where I'm going. I am 24 and have never had a substantial relationship...though I often say I wish for one deep down inside I know the reason. I am a loner, my entire life I've felt separate from everyone around me...always finding myself alone in a crowded room.