Alone

Life is hard cause the harsh reality of this whole game is that we're each all alone. Occasionally you'll meet someone who trust you enough to share their heart with you...but a lot of life will be spent in your own world. That's why so many people exert an enormous amount of energy trying to desperately connect with people. Living out here has taught me that lesson...above all else people will take care of themselves first. In my naivete I believed that at least the people I loved the most would do all they could to have my back. I have embraced that I am my own rock...I do have people in my life who love me and don't like to see me go through hard times but at the end of the day when times do get hard I am going through it, not them. In so many ways that has made me a stronger person and helped me grown into a man. Nobody can take credit for anything I accomplished nor can they stop me from getting where I'm going. I am 24 and have never had a substantial relationship...though I often say I wish for one deep down inside I know the reason. I am a loner, my entire life I've felt separate from everyone around me...always finding myself alone in a crowded room.

Rush Week!

Ugh! I have so much to say about this past week. It started off great with a wonderful first time session with Soulshock & Carlin in which we blew their minds. Then I had to go and over do it by booking myself a acting gig in Palmdale on Tuesday night and a session on Thursday morning. Well needless to say we were shooting till 8am tuesday and on the way back to LA I got into a horrible car accident. After catching my breathe from getting hit by the airbag and handling biz wit the CHP I went straight to my session. Throughout the rest of the week was drama with a writing partner and visits to the hospital. Through this experience I learned patience and more importantly the consequences of trying to rush through life. There is no rushing this process, for any of us that are chasing dreams. We have our sights set on accomplishing what many have deemed as impossible...and sometimes trick ourselves into thinking it'll happen quickly. One side of this is that in pushing yourself too hard you can and probably hurt yourself. And two, you will forget to "live", and in doing so drain yourself of the inspiration that comes with the joy of living. I hope everyone takes time to walk outside, have dinner and drinks, and make lots of love. That way when we all bump into the studio to work it will be a natural flowing labor of love. Embrace the grind and love life and it will embrace and love you back!

It's Happening!

Been a minute, but that's cause it's been a crazy busy time for me. I got my first acting gig last friday and ended up stuck in Palmdale due to the fires. Then monday I had my first session with Soulshock & Carlin (google em) which went great! The asked me to come back for the rest of the week :) now it's back to the grind and keeping this momentum going. I finished an amazing record today...one that I've put a LOT into and it's really special to me! I'm just excited bout everything and hope it keeps moving cause it's been a long time coming! Peace & Love
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Moral Of The Story

What makes people special? I've often felt different, not better, just different than other people. I'm just a nigerian american kid that grew up bouncing between the south side and midtown area's of Kansas City. I was sometimes a genius, sometimes a delinquent, a loving brother, and sometimes bad son. I went to school at a boy's home and was in the military by the age of 16. I started writing and quickly fell in love with poetry which led to a short career as a spoken word artist. For as long as I can remember one of the few times I'm happy is when I can grab a pen and pad and get lost in a new story or lyric. I became a songwriter when I realized if I could learn to add melody to my poetry I could reach accomplish my dreams of success. I now live in Los Angeles and am working hard to make my mark in the music industry. I think stories heal and since lyricism went on vacation, I wanna help bring back the healing power of stories in music. Even though I'm just getting started the voyage already feels unreal. People I used to watch on tv I'm now friends with or work with. Along with this excitement comes an incredible amount of pressure, it's not everyday you get to realize your fantasy.
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Dreams

So I've been milling over the disturbing news of record executive Shakir Stewart's death. He's someone whose biography inspired me to hustle harder and accomplishments represented the light at the end of the tunnel. What was most alarming was that he had apparently achieved his dream and had all most men would want...at least as far as we could see. His family has said he was "in a dark place" the past few weeks and seemed very depressed. This is a reminder that we all need to do everything we can to stay grounded...and show the one's we love that we LOVE them. Most of us spend so much time achieving our dreams that we fail to make sure we are mentally prepared for what comes with that success. That's why so many people crack, that pressure is crazy. Dave Chappelle said it best, "weak people don't make it to the top in this industry!" I always tell people that pressure does one of two things, bust pipes or create a diamond. Also, sometimes we have friends who have "made it" and assume that they have everything. Let's not forget the power a simple "I love you" holds or just simply letting someone know your there for them.
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